Thanks Voilet.. and a big hug from Sweden
> Date: Wed, 16 May 2012 02:32:38 -0700
> To: firstname.lastname@example.org
> From: email@example.com
> Subject: Re: Looper's Delight donation
> At 6:56 PM -0400 5/15/12, Tyler wrote:
> >Hello. If I go to the Looper's Delight website and donate money, will it
> >go to good use? Or is that an old outdated button from 2006?
> The donate button is current and 100% of every donation goes directly
> toward server costs. Any amount is appreciated! I'm sorry I haven't been
> able to write to personally thank everyone who's donated. I've kind of
> been a wreck the past couple of years.
> This seems a good opportunity to mention that now that estate issues have
> finally been resolved, I'll be able to move foward on updating the site.
> It's probably going to be a slow process (made more difficult for reasons I
> can't go into without upsetting myself, and I'm still struggling so hard to
> pull myself up out of the darkness, I rather not do that), but my hope is
> that even if the process of updating does end up being slow, it will at
> least be steady. I just have to keep trying to do the best I can to make
> it through one day at a time, not just with LD, but everything. This is
> such a challenging time, filled with overwhelming and scary stuff I've
> never had to deal with before, and getting through it with no family or
> partner to even just give me a hug or tell me they love me on a shitty day
> has been brutal. Surviving has been, and continues to be, a painful
> journey, one I nearly didn't go on, not by choice, but because everything
> in me simply shut down and broke down and stopped. The fact that I'm still
> here to move into the future at all is a miracle. So, y'know, whatever I
> manage to get done, whether it's taking a shower or eating actual food or
> just waking up one more day, I'm proud of myself for getting that far, and
> that's important to me, being proud that I'm still fighting the fight.
> Small victories don't seem so small any more. Realising that small
> victories are still victories is kind of nice, but being satisfied with
> baby steps is hard when you're someone who's always wanted to have
> everything in the world done by yesterday and only knows how to do things
> by pushing yourself to the breaking point instead of pacing. I'm trying to
> learn how to go easy on myself. It's hard. I spend a lot of time
> reminding myself about the tortoise and the hare, trying to stay positive.
> So, yeah, anywho, now that I've given myself yet another pep talk....
> By the way, Tyler, I've really been enjoying your posts. Your questions
> and observations are always interesting. I wish you could have known Kim.
> I think you would have liked him.
> I really liked the "Why NOT Looping..." thread, too. You guys are always
> good for a laugh. Well, mostly. LOL