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Re: Improvising vs. composing
I too struggle with the choice of doing either wholly improvised
or composed music with some of the same problems you all
mention. The CD I did a couple of years back was entirely
improvised and was the result of one of those rare and
sublime "spiritual highs" that was mentioned.
Problems arose for me as I started to go out and gig in support
of this disc when I tried to replicate (as well as I could) the
pieces on the CD. It was not a fun experience generally -- at
least not for me. Who knows what the audiences were thinking.
I am not a professional performer by any means. But I did my
best to struggle through and do these gigs anyway. However,
I do have to say my favorite part of them has always been
when something went wrong or distracted me for a moment
and my "muse" suddenly reappeard.
This would invariably happen when my "plans" had somehow been
sufficiently knocked off track that true improvising began to
happen again. I now try to allow for more of this to happen
since it seems (to me) that that is my true calling as a
musician anyway. I'm amuch better improvisor (even if I am
rather spotty at that) than I am a composer.
I just try to live with and accept that.
tEd ® kiLLiAn